A Stressful Glimpse into my Writing Process

In the video, Chel White says that he writes a bunch of words that turn out to be garbage.  I feel like everything i write at first is garbage. When i read it over, I wonder what was I thinking? White says he crumples the paper up and throws it in the hole he dug outside.  I wish I could do that so that I could let all of my frustration out.  When I write, i need to kill a few babies before I get a product that is good enough to be read.  i usually have no idea what I am writing at first.  After i read it, I really have no idea what I wrote.  Writing is a long and stressful process for me.  I always want it to be perfect, but i always find imperfections.  I wish that I could be like Chel White and throw every paper I write into this huge hole and burry it under ground.  Life would be so much easier that way.  What makes it even worst is that I am writing on a blog so everyone who wants to can see all of my crazy, random thoughts.